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Post by Izanagi Kita on Apr 15, 2016 20:51:40 GMT
[attr="class","summer1"] [attr="class","banner"] my only one~ [attr="class","bigpic"] [attr="class","triangle"]◄ Made my mistakes, let you down. And I can't hold on for too long. Ran my whole life in the ground. And I can't get up when you're gone * Uhm, maybe? Sorry.
Izzy smirked. Of course he didn't know what he was really saying, and it was frustrating him to no hell, because Izzy had no idea how he was supposed to act. His better judgement just kept telling him to find a way to spare Kaoru any pain in the situation, but Kaoru had basically told him that he could decide things for himself. Izzy was just so used to basing all of his decisions on how he thought Kaoru felt. To have it any other way was just so damn confusing. Izzy's face was red again at the arch of Kaoru's eyebrow, but he still just couldn't help himself, but all he did was roll his eyes at his small chuckle. If there was anything Izzy sometimes appeared to have too much of, it was pride.
Izzy was still questioning whether removing his shirt had been the right move, but Kaoru had cooperated, and he had just said that he could make his own decisions. Still, that didn't mean that Izzy wasn't expecting him to shuffle away or push Izzy right off at any given moment. His hands were wildly searching over Kaoru's bare chest as if they were trying to memorize it while they had the chance to as his lips continued to collide with his.
I-I know. Do you mean that.. starting from tomorrow, you'll be my, uhm, boyfriend?
Izzy's eyes widened slightly at the word boyfriend, but he tried to make it so Kaoru wouldn't be able to tell by calming them down immediately after. Instead, he kind of just glared down at him rather harshly. The was the one thing Izzy wanted to be more than anything. He wanted to be Kaoru's boyfriend with every fiber in his body. He wanted to share everything with him without having to push him away and feel bad about it, but how could he? He was still afraid it wasn't what Kaoru wanted despite his arguing. Still glaring down at him, he decided he needed to spit out some words in response. "Hell no." He couldn't. "I already told you that I'm not good enough for you, so hell fucking no." He put emphasis on the end of that sentence to make sure Kaoru got the point. "I just won't be able to keep my hands off of you whenever you do something that gets me... well, you know, going." Izzy was pissed at himself in that moment. Why couldn't he have just said yes? His dream was laid out right in front of him by Kaoru to grab, and he'd pushed him away yet again in another sense. His heart ached, and he wasn't going to be able to forgive himself for not taking the opportunity in front of him. "We can be playmates." He swallowed, knowing that he probably wouldn't be able to handle such a thing. His jealousy was far too intense.
In love.. with me? I-Izzy? Are you crying?
The hand through his hair was very soothing, taking away a little bit of the pain he was suddenly feeling from everything that was happening in front of him. Izzy moved himself in accordance as Kaoru sat up, and he kept his face buried in Kaoru's shoulder for another moment, wetting some of his own hair that had fallen between his eyes and Kaoru's shoulder. When they were finally sitting up, Izzy pulled his head off of his shoulder as he sat on Kaoru's lap. He kept his eyes in between them, unable to meet Kaoru's anymore.
I love you, Izzy.
He was pulled into a hug, but his arms didn't move. I love you. The words he'd longed to hear from Kaoru for so long were now in the air, but Izzy just couldn't bring himself to trust them. They only made a few more tears fall. There was just no way. Kaoru didn't know what he was saying. He didn't understand the way Izzy felt about him. He didn't get it. He probably never would.
Don't cry, please.
Kaoru pulled away from the embrace to kiss his cheeks. Izzy brought up his arm right after and wiped away his tears with the sleeve of his sweater. Kaoru's lips met his again, and Izzy couldn't help but kiss him when he did. This time, he pulled back after only a second though, Kaoru's words ringing in his ears. "You have love for me. You're not in love with me. It's not the same thing, Kao." His eyes were in between them again, still failing to meet Kaoru's. "So don't say that. Not unless you feel it with your entire soul." Izzy swallowed hard. "You're like my lifeline. The thought of you keeps me going." He chuckled. "Pathetic, isn't it?" A light shrug of his shoulders followed. "Don't give away your love so easily. It's a gift that's too amazing to just toss around." He didn't want to talk about that anymore. He just couldn't. It hurt to much, so he leaned forward again, attempting to take Kaoru's lips in his own again. A hand found Kaoru's cheek while the other rested on the bare skin of his chest. [attr="class","square1"] [attr="class","square2"] [attr="class","square3"] [attr="class","square4"] [attr="class","notes"] 866 WORDS were written for Kaoru Himura — *coughs for decades* [googlefont="Lobster"] [newclass=.summer1]width:500px;height:530px;background-image:url('http://i.imgur.com/yOw7ja5.jpg'); repeat: yes; border: 10px solid #8e6da0;position:relative:z-index:2;[/newclass] [newclass=.banner]width:420px;height:70px;margin-left:-120px;margin-top:30px;background-color:#5b1e74;color:#8e6da0;text-shadow:1px 2px 0px #6d298a;position:relative;z-index:3;font-size:8px;line-height:100%;[/newclass] [newclass=.bigpic]width:150px;height:500px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:5px;border:solid 1px #666666;float:right;margin-right:10px;margin-top:-91px;position:relative;z-index:4;[/newclass] [newclass=.triangle]font-size:29px; color:#6d298a;margin-top:-19px;margin-left:-348px;position:relative:z-index:-1;[/newclass] [newclass=.sumtext]width:300px;height:400px;background-color:#8e6da0;font-family: calibri; font-size: 11px; text-align: justify; padding:10px; overflow: auto; line-height: 100%; color: #444444border: 1px solid #666666;margin-top:150px;margin-left:-50px;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass] [newclass=.square1]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-10px;margin-left:-10px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square2]width:32px;height:32px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:3px;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-40px; margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square3]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:3px; margin-left:-9px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square4]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-40px;margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes"]width:150px;padding:15px;margin:auto;background-color:#8e6da0;color:#222;font-size:7px;text-align:justify;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-147px;margin-left:175px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass]
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Post by Kaoru Himura on Apr 15, 2016 21:50:23 GMT
WORD COUNT BY MINNIE OF WW AND IT'S DARK ON A COLD DECEMBER, Hell no.
For some reason, that answer broke him. His eyebrows dropped, that little hopeful expression of his disappearing beneath a shocked one as waves passed him by. Why would he refuse to be his boyfriend if he was in love with him? Kaoru had to blink a few times, trying to push past that wall of confusion that quickly appeared in his head, blocking him from thinking past his words. He tilted his head despite his own will to remain still. His teeth clicking together, Kaoru willed his eyes to remain neutral for a brief moment before they reflected his confusion.
I already told you that I'm not good enough for you, so hell fucking no.
Sometimes Kaoru just wanted to slap him for how his words sound like. He was too stubborn to allow himself to think that he actually deserved Kaoru. He kept crushing everything good about him to make people hate him and Kao just hoped he'd be able to change that about him. It definitely tired him out sometimes, like right now. Despite everything, he still thought so low of himself, not allowing a moment of happiness to surround his heart. His emphasis on the end made him frown briefly before his face fell blank yet again.
I just won't be able to keep my hands off of you whenever you do something that gets me... well, you know, going. We can be playmates.
Kaoru's eyes widened, his cheeks heating once more. The serious talk between them helped calm his flushed face. "You think.." He cleared his throat, taking a moment to gather his voice once more before parting his lips yet again to mutter his next sentence. "You think you don't deserve me as a boyfriend.. But you do as a.. playmate?" Kaoru blinked a few times, giving his head a slight tilt. He wasn't offended, to say the least, but he was just too confused. "You confuse me too much, Izzy.." He chuckled a little, biting on his lower lip to break his chuckle.
You have love for me. You're not in love with me. It's not the same thing, Kao. So don't say that. Not unless you feel it with your entire soul.
Not the same thing. Kaoru took a few moments to understand his words better. His gaze dropped to his lap, thinking about something to say, something that could save the two of them, but in the end, he found himself welcoming the silence with open arms and sad smiles. His fingers clutched tighter around the fabric, chewing on his inner cheeks for a moment.
You're like my lifeline. The thought of you keeps me going. Pathetic, isn't it?
"No, Izzy. It's not pathetic," he disagreed easily, not even thinking about what he wants to say next. "It's quite.. romantic, actually, makes me feel special, at least." He said rather sheepishly, feeling like a deer caught in the headlights with no exit. Kaoru's hand caught a strand of hair that belonged to Izzy, sliding his hand down to catch the end of it, unconsciously rolling it around his finger without tugging hard on it to cause pain. He was just trying hard to find a use to his hand instead of keeping it awkwardly by his side.
Don't give away your love so easily. It's a gift that's too amazing to just toss around.
Kaoru was about to protest, about to hold on tightly to his point but Izzy's lips soon distracted him and soon enough, his resistance was crumbling down to his feet. With his hand back on his chest, he slowly became aware of the awkward fact that he was the only one visible to the cold air. His hand eventually trailed down rather hesitantly, grasping the fabric to pull it up slowly, attempting to take it off, but beforehand, he did the same thing with Izzy's hair where he gathered the long strands to not tug on them by mistake. Soon enough, he drew back from the kiss to mimic the other's earlier movements by trailing down feathery kisses around his jawline before travelling back up to his lips, capturing them into a passionate kiss where his tongue timidly came out to brush against the seam of his lips before it retreated back into his mouth from the sudden volt that rushed through his body. It was too crazy, it almost made him lose his mind. Drawing back from the kiss, he released a trembling sigh. "Just.. do it, Izzy." Did he even know what he was talking about? Or even asking him to do? But it was more than enough to kick the serious topic away for the time being. He wanted the other to be close to him, close enough to feel his heat and simply feed on it.
- - i think i love you better now
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Post by Izanagi Kita on Apr 15, 2016 22:38:51 GMT
[attr="class","summer1"] [attr="class","banner"] my only one~ [attr="class","bigpic"] [attr="class","triangle"]◄ Made my mistakes, let you down. And I can't hold on for too long. Ran my whole life in the ground. And I can't get up when you're gone * You think you don't deserve me as a boyfriend.. But you do as a.. playmate? You confuse me too much, Izzy..
He pressed his lips together. That was probably far more extreme, but it also meant that Kaoru didn't have to make any kind of commitments. Izzy was so good at running now that even though he was offering Kaoru a way to be free, it was still just pretty much him running. "You don't think I do?" He tilted his head to the side, heart beating fast, actually afraid of the answer he was going to get. He really didn't. No part of him believed he did, but Kaoru told him to stop thinking for him, so now he was giving him a chance to speak his thoughts. It felt strange, and he had far too much anticipation threatening to break through his skin.
No, Izzy. It's not pathetic. It's quite.. romantic, actually, makes me feel special, at least.
Romantic? Izzy had never thought of himself as romantic. Not once in his life had he even considered himself to be anything close to that. Still, the fact that Kaoru said it made his face softened a bit though his eyes were trailing over Kaoru's exposed skin and his fingers went to trace his collar bone.
Izzy allowed Kaoru to take off his shirt, smirking as he did it, his face reddening as he thought about how much skin was going to be close to the other. With that thought in mind he couldn't help but let out another sound of pleasure as Kaoru returned the trail of kisses. He kissed him back when he met his lips again, returning all the passion Kaoru was throwing his way, sinking into it, letting himself be consumed by his desiring thoughts once more. Kaoru's tongue against his lips sent a shiver of pleasure down his spine. When he pulled it back, Izzy inched forward slightly, wanting to grab onto it with his lips, but stopping as soon as Kaoru spoke once more. He was disappointed that Kaoru didn't continue, but much less so when he'd heard the words he spoke.
Just.. do it, Izzy.
His expression was flustered for a moment before he pushed himself back into control. Slowly, a smirk crawled up onto Izzy's face, and he let out a soft chuckle. He couldn't even be sure that Kaoru knew exactly what he was asking for, but Izzy knew exactly what he was going to do. Those words were too inviting, and Izzy kissed his cheek. "Do what, Kaoru?" He asked with seductiveness and playfulness both in his voice. He wanted Kaoru to tell him what he thought was going to happen. Now that he was choking down the fear a bit, he'd gone back to teasing him. If this was going to happen, he wanted it to be good for Kaoru and not just a painful memory. His heart skipped a beat when Izzy wondered just how many people had him in the past. How many hands had touched the places he was touching? Had Kaoru had lovers after Akira? "What is it that you want me to do to you?" He continued to tease.
He brushed the thought aside, slowly moving off of Kaoru's lap, leaning down and grabbing his hand to try and pull him off the ground after him. He then attempted to walk backwards with Kaoru's hand, leading him toward his bed. He didn't even stop to think that there was a possibility his roommate would come back. He honestly didn't really care. The idea of being caught was almost amusing to him, because he knew that it would make sure the roommate would keep his hands off of Kaoru. Then again, what if Kaoru told him he wasn't going to be his boyfriend? He cringed at the idea of Kaoru explaining to others that Izzy was just his... playmate. "On second thought," he spoke, swallowing hard knowing that he was probably about to confuse the hell out of Kaoru. "I am your boyfriend. Only... not tomorrow. Right now." He said it with absolute confidence, but he didn't know how Kaoru was going to take that. He was probably throwing him all over the place. Back and forth, over and over again. Wishy-washy for sure. He also didn't want him to know that his jealous thoughts were the only reason he'd said such a thing. "That's still okay with you, right Kaoru?" He grinned at him, one that if he saw it in the mirror, he'd probably be afraid of himself. He looked like a monster, feeding on nothing but his own desires. This entire situation was probably a terrible thing to have happened. He was out of control now that Kaoru had basically given him permission. [attr="class","square1"] [attr="class","square2"] [attr="class","square3"] [attr="class","square4"] [googlefont="Lobster"] [newclass=.summer1]width:500px;height:530px;background-image:url('http://i.imgur.com/yOw7ja5.jpg'); repeat: yes; border: 10px solid #8e6da0;position:relative:z-index:2;[/newclass] [newclass=.banner]width:420px;height:70px;margin-left:-120px;margin-top:30px;background-color:#5b1e74;color:#8e6da0;text-shadow:1px 2px 0px #6d298a;position:relative;z-index:3;font-size:8px;line-height:100%;[/newclass] [newclass=.bigpic]width:150px;height:500px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:5px;border:solid 1px #666666;float:right;margin-right:10px;margin-top:-91px;position:relative;z-index:4;[/newclass] [newclass=.triangle]font-size:29px; color:#6d298a;margin-top:-19px;margin-left:-348px;position:relative:z-index:-1;[/newclass] [newclass=.sumtext]width:300px;height:400px;background-color:#8e6da0;font-family: calibri; font-size: 11px; text-align: justify; padding:10px; overflow: auto; line-height: 100%; color: #444444border: 1px solid #666666;margin-top:150px;margin-left:-50px;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass] [newclass=.square1]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-10px;margin-left:-10px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square2]width:32px;height:32px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:3px;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-40px; margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square3]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:3px; margin-left:-9px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square4]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-40px;margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes"]width:150px;padding:15px;margin:auto;background-color:#8e6da0;color:#222;font-size:7px;text-align:justify;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-147px;margin-left:175px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass]
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Post by Kaoru Himura on Apr 16, 2016 11:24:13 GMT
WORD COUNT BY MINNIE OF WW AND IT'S DARK ON A COLD DECEMBER, You don't think I do?
What kind of question was that? He felt as if that question could be considered normal and so would be the answer, but to Izzy, it would mean something else entirely. "You deserve me as both, Izzy." He answered with no hesitation in his tone this time, no sheepish tone or awkward laughs. Kaoru wanted him to know he wasn't joking about his answer, it meant something to him just like how it meant something for Izzy as well. They were both confused, that should be normal, especially since a few hours ago they were best friends and now, they were stepping over the line with Kaoru following him like a dog on a leash. He didn't find that ounce of regret sparkling through his insides whenever he kissed Izzy, he felt shockwaves, wild and untamed.
Do what, Kaoru? What is it that you want me to do to you?
The seductive and playful tone lingering in Izzy's voice made Kaoru shiver slightly and squirm just a little on the ground. Heat flooded through his veins like the waves, each hit made him feel more flustered and cornered with such a question. An answer was in front of him, but his mouth couldn't say it, his teeth clicked together as his eyes dropped to Izzy's chest, avoiding his gaze. "Umm-" he started, biting on his lower lip for a moment.
Breathing heavily, Kaoru wasn't used to that kind of teasing and it took everything in his well to not duck away from the answer like a coward. Maybe it would cause both of them some pleasure if he'd just say it out loud. His eyes followed Izzy as he stood up. For a second, panic washed over him, afraid that he'd pushed Izzy away with his timidness until Izzy took his hand. His knees were still weak, but he still pushed up from the ground by Izzy's help.
His steps led him to his bed and Kaoru almost jumped out of his skin as he approached it. Looking at his best friend helped him find ease, it made his heart stop jumping in his chest like a wild animal and once they arrived there, Kaoru's grip on Izzy's hand slightly tightened. Though he was eager to meet the warmth of his bed that could easily replace the coldness of his body. Instead of being timid, he was the one leading Izzy into his bed, he dropped on it first, moving to the middle while still tugging on Izzy's hand to follow him. His head supported by the pillow, he could look at him more clearly now and he offered a gentle smile to him.
On second thought, I am your boyfriend. Only... not tomorrow. Right now. That's still okay with you, right Kaoru?
"Hmm?" he answered to his best friend's first statement. His eyebrow arched, incredibly confused by Izzy's statement. Boyfriend for now but not tomorrow? What kind of declaration was that? He couldn't keep his confused face for long, not when Izzy grinned at him like that. It made him squirm on the bed, breath hitching in his throat. "Y-yeah, yeah, I'm okay with that," he cleared his throat to gain back his voice before his hands reluctantly moved up to trail over Izzy's chest, he paused a few times but he did it to take in Izzy's form. "I,um, never did anything past this point.. Akira wanted to, quite a few times, actually.. But I wanted the first time to be special to her, so I told her to wait." Why am I talking about her now? "I just thought you should now.. You're pretty much my first if we do anything past this point," okay, shut up, Kao. He scolded himself again. "So, um, just do something," - - i think i love you better now
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Post by Izanagi Kita on Apr 16, 2016 19:45:55 GMT
[attr="class","summer1"] [attr="class","banner"] my only one~ [attr="class","bigpic"] [attr="class","triangle"]◄ Made my mistakes, let you down. And I can't hold on for too long. Ran my whole life in the ground. And I can't get up when you're gone * You deserve me as both, Izzy.
Izzy's eyes widened slightly at that statement, leading it feed into him. He tried his hardest to believe Kaoru, still focused on the speech he'd given him earlier. The efforts to do so just continued to fail. There was no way he deserved Kaoru. It didn't matter how much he wanted him, he was never going to be a person who was actually worthy of him.
Umm-
His eyes fell to Kaoru's lips as hit bit the bottom one, and Izzy found himself licking his own bottom lip. Kaoru almost seemed like he was flustered or something, unable to answer his question, and Izzy was definitely enjoying making him that way. The smirk didn't leave his lips as his eyes went back up to Kaoru's. "Um, what, Kaoru?" He chuckled lightly, leaning down into his ear again. "You didn't answer my question. What do you want me to do to you?" He wasn't expecting an actual response, but he rather enjoyed making Kaoru squirm underneath him.
Kaoru's grip on his hand tightened, and now he was worried he was moving to fast. He just couldn't stop himself, and it wasn't like Kaoru was running away. His thumb started absentmindedly brushing back and forth on Kaoru's hand as he held it, trying to comfort him in some way as they got closer to his bed. He wasn't trying to scare him. Not anymore.
The fact that Kaoru ended up taking the lead peeked Izzy's interest and made him wonder if he wasn't as nervous as he'd thought he'd been. Maybe he had done this multiple times before, a thought that made him cringe, but even so, he followed the other's lead. He watched him drop onto the bed in front of him, and Izzy couldn't help but lick his lips yet again, feeling the want inside of him grow even more now that the time was getting closer.
He moved onto the bed as Kaoru led him, and then crawled over to Kaoru on the middle of the bed before then just crawling on top of him, one leg on each side. Kaoru's smile hit his heart, and he couldn't help but smile back lightly, a hand moving to brush a little hair out of his face. His smile reflected more love then want, even if the want was still heavily intensifying.
Hmm? Y-yeah, yeah, I'm okay with that.
He smirked at Kaoru's confusion, shaking his head. "I mean it starts today. Not, uh, that it starts tomorrow." Explaining himself felt incredibly unsexy, but he could already tell he'd said that confusing like. "And then.... it continues.... until you say... otherwise...." His tone was almost embarrassed as he spoke that, unsure if it was the right thing to add. He twitched a little bit. "What I mean to say is," he started, taking a deep breath. "Do you... want to be... like... a couple or something?" He spoke the words way too fast, unsure if Kaoru was even going to be able to catch the last part of it. Wow. I really am an idiot. He closed his eyes for a moment, and then opened then, giving Kaoru an awkward smile. Izzy never really acted so nervous on the outside, but he felt himself trembling. Kaoru was probably going to be the only person he'd ever let see him stumble over words like this.
I,um, never did anything past this point.. Akira wanted to, quite a few times, actually.. But I wanted the first time to be special to her, so I told her to wait. I just thought you should now.. You're pretty much my first if we do anything past this point.
Izzy blinked a few times, unable to keep the smile off his previously jealous lips right after. It felt like the ultimate win to him, even if he in no way thought of Kaoru as an object. That bitch didn't get him, and suddenly a lot of the fear he'd had over time was fading though he still would never be able to stand the chick. "Good. You're all mine." He spoke, the words he was thinking just kind of slipped out.
So, um, just do something.
Izzy frowned. "Wow, how romantic." Sarcasm was definitely apparent in his voice. He was worried Kaoru was just itching to get it over with, but he brushed past that and decided to give him a teasing look and he leaned down to press his lips to Kaoru's neck, this time finding a new spot to bite down on and suck in. When he'd stopped he smiled devilishly at the second mark he'd made. It was like proof of what he was doing.
His heart was beating faster again, and he moved to Kaoru's lips, kissing them like it was the first time he was getting them all over again. He gently bit Kaoru's lower lip and sucked in before letting it go and giving him a quick kiss on the lips. Though he wanted nothing more than to move forward, he stopped for a moment to look Kaoru in the eyes. "If at any moment you're not okay, please tell me." He made sure to sound absolutely serious. Kaoru's well being was too damn important to him. "I mean it. Okay?"
With that, he started trailing kisses down his jawline, to his collar bone, then gently down his chest before he instead switched out to dragging his tongue all thee way down to his stomach, one hand placed on Kaoru's chest. He lifted up his face just a little bit to move down and place a kiss against the outside of his pants on the lower region before his eyes looked up, searching for Kaoru's, wanting to just double check that this was still okay. [attr="class","square1"] [attr="class","square2"] [attr="class","square3"] [attr="class","square4"] [googlefont="Lobster"] [newclass=.summer1]width:500px;height:530px;background-image:url('http://i.imgur.com/yOw7ja5.jpg'); repeat: yes; border: 10px solid #8e6da0;position:relative:z-index:2;[/newclass] [newclass=.banner]width:420px;height:70px;margin-left:-120px;margin-top:30px;background-color:#5b1e74;color:#8e6da0;text-shadow:1px 2px 0px #6d298a;position:relative;z-index:3;font-size:8px;line-height:100%;[/newclass] [newclass=.bigpic]width:150px;height:500px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:5px;border:solid 1px #666666;float:right;margin-right:10px;margin-top:-91px;position:relative;z-index:4;[/newclass] [newclass=.triangle]font-size:29px; color:#6d298a;margin-top:-19px;margin-left:-348px;position:relative:z-index:-1;[/newclass] [newclass=.sumtext]width:300px;height:400px;background-color:#8e6da0;font-family: calibri; font-size: 11px; text-align: justify; padding:10px; overflow: auto; line-height: 100%; color: #444444border: 1px solid #666666;margin-top:150px;margin-left:-50px;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass] [newclass=.square1]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-10px;margin-left:-10px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square2]width:32px;height:32px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:3px;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-40px; margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square3]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:3px; margin-left:-9px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square4]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-40px;margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes"]width:150px;padding:15px;margin:auto;background-color:#8e6da0;color:#222;font-size:7px;text-align:justify;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-147px;margin-left:175px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass]
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Post by Kaoru Himura on Apr 17, 2016 22:03:21 GMT
WORD COUNT BY MINNIE OF WW AND IT'S DARK ON A COLD DECEMBER, Izzy looked doubtful for the most part. Though the debate around that part was quickly erased between them. He couldn't help that little triumph that bubbled up his chest when the debate was finally gone between them. Just like that. It honestly gave him a slight break where he could slump his shoulders without feeling defeated in a conversation where his best friend would continue to blame himself, over and over again for something Kao didn't understand.
Um, what, Kaoru? You didn't answer my question. What do you want me to do to you?
Kaoru squirmed even more, staring at Izzy with his eyes slightly opened wide. No words supported the heavy situation and Kaoru found himself opening and closing his mouth like a fish. "How am I-- supposed to know?" he asked, overly embarrassed by the question. "I, um, want you to.." Kaoru squirmed again, letting his eyes slowly drop from Izzy's eyes to his mouth then back up again. "Kiss me?" he slowly said, unsure of how it would sound. For him, it was just so unsexy it made him feel nervous.
Izzy gave him back the smile he offered and it warmed him up. He forgot about the situation and how fast it rolled between them. Even if it was fast, he didn't feel an ounce of regret in his chest or that absent voice in his head telling him to push Izzy away and just decline everything in a respectful manner. Try to.. sugarcoat it as they say. Kaoru's hand moved to rest on Izzy's cheek, arm stretched and blue eyes pouring the affection he carried for the other. He ran his hand through his hair, as gentle as possible, hand coming back easily to brush his thumb over the skin of his cheek, a tender motion for someone who was feeling too nervous to continue. Upon noticing the shake of his hand returning, he slowly retreated his hand from Izzy's cheek and dropped it by his side with a muted thud.
I mean it starts today. Not, uh, that it starts tomorrow. And then.... it continues.... until you say... otherwise... What I mean to say is, Do you... want to be... like... a couple or something?
Kaoru gave his head a small tilt, trying to grasp his friend's words. It took him a little before his eyes snapped open. "Yes!" he eagerly answered before his cheek heated in a blush, "I mean, um, yes. I'd love to be a couple.. with you." Kaoru said, a little embarrassed by how his voice almost cracked in the middle. Kaoru bit on his lower lip, his head rising off the pillow to crash his lips against Izzy. "I'd love that," he whispered upon breaking the kiss.
Good. You're all mine. Wow, how romantic.
His. All his. The strange surge of possessiveness in his words possessed him. He released a small sound at that, unable to keep his heartbeat steady. "..Yours." Kaoru found himself replying back to his words from before without even realizing it. Something he'd dismiss later on with a sheepish chuckle. He gave a breathless chuckle upon hearing Izzy's sarcasm comeback. "Hey now, what else am I supposed to say?" He complained softly, taking a moment to try and think of something romantic to say in a situation like this. He'd read a lot of books before, sometimes it carried a scene where the lovers would fall into the bed after being away from one another or perhaps another romantic setting the authors decided to plague the reader's mind with. He left the details to the reader's imaginations.
He took a slow breath, squeezing his eyes shut for a brief moment before opening them to give a slow blink after another. "I belong to you. So, um, do whatever you want, Izzy." Kaoru mumbled quietly, hoping the other wouldn't hear him. The teasing look in his eyes made him shiver, when his head dropped to his shoulder, he could see Izzy's sharp shoulder blades and how tempting the skin of his back looked. His hands found his back to draw his blunt nails down to the small of his back without noticing when he felt the other bite his neck.
If at any moment you're not okay, please tell me. I mean it. Okay?
Izzy's kisses left him out of breath, in a feeling that he'd rather never forget about. He allowed him to do whatever he wanted, he didn't resist when his lower lip was sucked into Izzy's mouth, if anything, he encouraged him by moving his lower body against his, releasing a muffled sound. When they parted away, Kaoru opened his eyes, taking a moment to grasp his words before nodding a few times. "Y-yeah, yeah, of course." He assured him with yet another nod.
Kaoru found himself lost in a whole different place when Izzy's lips trailed down, tongue added to the mixture just intensified everything. Kaoru's eyebrows drew into a small frown without even realizing and soon enough, the friction was gone, it pushed Kaoru to finally open his eyes and look at Izzy, he was waiting for his approval. It was just so like him. Feeling as if he needed to .. reward the other, he tugged him forward gently before canting his hips just right so he'd switch positions with Izzy. He hated just receiving things without being able to give anything back, so he trailed kisses down to his neck and gently grasped the flesh between his teeth to bite it then soothed the angry red skin with his tongue rather timidly, drawing back to trail down the same kisses to his chest area, tongue peeking out to softly drag it over the flesh until he reached his stomach. Honestly, he was only repeating the favor. He drew back to look at Izzy for a moment, moving forward to press their lips together. - - i think i love you better now
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Post by Izanagi Kita on Apr 18, 2016 5:13:10 GMT
[attr="class","summer1"] [attr="class","banner"] my only one~ [attr="class","bigpic"] [attr="class","triangle"]◄ Made my mistakes, let you down. And I can't hold on for too long. Ran my whole life in the ground. And I can't get up when you're gone * How am I-- supposed to know? I, um, want you to.. Kiss me?Izzy raised an eyebrow, pulling his face up from his ear to look him in the eyes. "That's all you want?" The seductiveness was gone from his voice now. His expression was basically an are you serious type of expression, but he only wore it for a minute, smiling lightly at Kaoru. "Fine. Your loss." He lowered his lips down to Kaoru's, lightly kissing his lips in a way that was practically just a peck before moving his face back up and smiling at him. "Like that?" Now he was teasing him, though he was seriously doubting Kaoru would even know how to respond to that. He was kind of super fucking precious, so Izzy didn't really blame him. Kaoru's hand in his hair and then moving to his cheek made Izzy feel warm. It made his heart pound, feeling comforted by the touch of his friend. Though he may not have shown it, he was rather nervous. It just wasn't for the same reason. He'd imagined this all happening time and time again, but he was so worried that Kaoru was going to regret it. His hand dropping in the way it did made him feel no better about all of it. He moved his own hand and brushed it over Kaoru's cheeks, his eyes full of more sorrow then anything as he tried to read his face in order to make sure this was all actually alright. When he noticed his own expression, he leaned down and kissed him on the cheek in order to give himself a moment to wipe the sorrow from his face. He didn't want to ruin the mood with his worry, still trying to trust that Kaoru was actually alright with this. Yes! I mean, um, yes. I'd love to be a couple.. with you.It almost felt like... Kaoru was happy about that answer, causing a small smile to come to Izzy's face. The way he answered actually made Izzy forget about his worries for a moment. He tried to remind himself that he could freak out about all of this tomorrow, but for now he just wanted to be with him. He wanted to enjoy the fact that they were actually being... a couple. Kaoru came up to kiss him, and Izzy kissed him back, running a hand through Kaoru's hair, his heart threatening to break through his rib cage. I'd love that.Hearing that intensified Izzy's emotions. They were already heightened, but now they were the most magnified they'd been in a long time. Kaoru was all he'd ever wanted, and he'd just agreed to basically be his boyfriend, and the feeling he'd gotten was so incredible that he couldn't describe it now that he was letting himself let go of all of the default resistance he had been feeling and that he was going to continue to feel again tomorrow. Maybe it'd even come back as soon as this was over. He was going to have to work really hard to not run out on Kaoru after this was over. If there was anything he could do to make Kaoru hate him, Izzy was pretty sure it'd be running out on him after an experience like this. Hey now, what else am I supposed to say?Izzy rolled his eyes, shrugging slightly, but giving him the same seductive look he'd had before after, not ready to give up on the moment despite it all. Maybe he was the one saying the wrong things. Kaoru had the ability to make Izzy have to question himself over and over again. I belong to you. So, um, do whatever you want, Izzy.A grin came over Izzy's lips almost immediately, making him resembled that of a demon as he repeated those words in his head. His possessive nature adored it when Kaoru spoke what he had. He'd never thought he'd hear those words come out of his mouth, and it send a shiver down his spine as he bit his neck, letting a small groan escape his mouth as Kaoru's nails found his back. It should have probably gave him more pain, but instead he was just feeling pure pleasure from Kaoru's reaction. Y-yeah, yeah, of course.Good. He understood. Izzy just hoped Kaoru would remember that, being far too concerned about his best friend underneath him. He was his everything, even if Kaoru couldn't really grasp that. There was no one like Kaoru. No one made his heart leap out of his chest like he did, and no one made him run through so many emotions at the exact same time as he did. There was no one he cared about more, and there was no one more precious to him. He'd do anything for Kaoru. Hell, if Kaoru told him to go jump off a cliff, he'd jump. He was absolutely obsessed, consumed by everything about him. Kaoru switched around with him, and Izzy let out a soft groan when the other's lips hit his neck. The biting only made him groan loader, and his face reddened as he grabbing onto Kaoru's hips rather tightly, feeling himself tense up. His hands dropped to the bed and his eyes widened slightly as Kaoru copied his previous movements with his mouth. When he was finished, Izzy returned his kiss as his hands trailed down the front of his body. They stopped on his belt and undid the buckle before going after the button. His head was beating rapidly, unsure if he was going to fast but knowing that he needed it now or his heart was going to combust. He could hear it beating as he began to tug on them. -------------------FADE TO BLACK------------------- Breathing heavily, Izzy dropped down on the bed next to Kaoru. He stared up at the ceiling, feeling the cold air rushing over his body as it was no longer moving with the others. He pressed his lips together, swallowing hard before parting them slightly again to let the much needed air into his lungs. His eyes didn't dare look over at Kaoru. He'd just experienced the most amazing moment of his life, but as he laid there for just a moment, the fear was already flooding in. There was fear of what Kaoru was thinking. Fear of how Kaoru felt. Fear on whether or not that had actually been good for him. During everything, it had all felt so amazing, so perfect. So incredible. So why did he feel so terrible now? It felt as though he'd done something incredibly wrong to his best friend, like he'd some how stolen something from him. Izzy still couldn't believe that what had happened actually happened in the first place. It was everything he'd ever thought it would have been and then some. So... why was there a tear falling from his eye as he stared at the ceiling of Kaoru's dorm? He'd let himself get out of control. Despite Kaoru's willingness, he was afraid he'd taken advantage of him. His brain was going crazy, but his body felt amazing. He'd felt more comfortable in his skin then he'd ever had, having never felt such a satisfying thing. His chest moved up and down with every breath he took in and let out. His eyes were still unwilling to move to look at Kaoru. He tried to open his mouth further to speak, tried to say anything at all, but he couldn't. The words just got stuck in his throat. His first instinct would have been to run with the sudden confusion he was having, but he didn't do so. He wouldn't do that to him. Instead he just stayed there, his breathing the only thing that proved his wasn't somehow frozen. [attr="class","square1"] [attr="class","square2"] [attr="class","square3"] [attr="class","square4"] [attr="class","notes"] 1305 WORDS were written for Kaoru Himura — *coughs* yeaaaahhhhh ^^; .... 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Post by Kaoru Himura on Apr 22, 2016 21:33:45 GMT
WORD COUNT BY MINNIE OF WW AND IT'S DARK ON A COLD DECEMBER, As the night was finally sealed passionately, Kaoru felt his heart beat in the strangest way possible, it almost made him want to cry. His body falling into relaxation, feeling movements next to him as Izzy's body dropped on his side, Kaoru's blue eyes searched through the ceiling for something that could capture his gaze. He was a bit scared of what could come next, the silence was giving off negative vibes, ones that made Kaoru's heart race. His own emotions were in a knot, unable to identify them as his thoughts raced like they were being haunted by a ghost. Kaoru's chest started to rise and fall in deep breaths, getting swallowed into his own thoughts. He blinked once, squirming a little on the bed. He started to realize that maybe a shower would be needed, but he was afraid if he left the room Izzy might think unnecessary things and disappear.
Speaking of, the male next to him didn't speak. He didn't say anything after all of this. Was he regretting his actions? Did Kaoru do anything that might have pushed him off? Kaoru's head turned on the pillow, searching for an expression on Izzy's face. Eyes running down, he saw his chest rising and falling as well, Kaoru felt a little smile grace his lips.
"Are you alright, Izzy?" Kaoru asked, concerned about the well-being of the other. Instead of commenting about how they both need a shower, he grasped his blanket and threw it over them both and snuggled close to Izzy, swallowing his warmth greedily. He rested his head against his shoulder and stared at the ceiling as well. "You are really quiet. Did I do something wrong?" Kaoru couldn't help but ask since the other's silence was unnerving.
He took a lot of time thinking about what they'd done and it would mean for them that he failed to remember how his parents would feel if they ever knew their son held attraction toward boys. It would make them disappointed, way too much that it would drive him mad. If he worked hard to please Izzy, he worked harder to please his parents and make them proud.
They wanted Kaoru to marry a woman and have children, ones that would carry his name and the family. His father wanted him to marry someone rich while his mother wanted him to be simply happy with whoever he'd choose, though that would never mean he should be happy with a man.. Kaoru bit on his bottom lip, shaking his head to throw out his thoughts before they could get too deep. "I don't regret this, Izzy. D-do you?" - - i think i love you better now
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Post by Izanagi Kita on Apr 26, 2016 2:53:39 GMT
[attr="class","summer1"] [attr="class","banner"] my only one~ [attr="class","bigpic"] [attr="class","triangle"]◄ Made my mistakes, let you down. And I can't hold on for too long. Ran my whole life in the ground. And I can't get up when you're gone * Are you alright, Izzy?
He heard the words Kaoru spoke, but he couldn't find the courage to look back over at him. All the questions about what had just happened were still crashing around in his mind. Kaoru threw a blanket over the both of them and began getting closer, and action that comforted Izzy. He was greatful for it easing his mind a little bit. His head on his shoulder made him lip quiver lightly upward into a nervous smile. He couldn't believe he felt nervous around him still after everything. It was baffling.
You are really quiet. Did I do something wrong?
Izzy turned his head finally to look over at Kaoru, unsure about doing so at first, but that question definitely earned some kind of reaction out of him. He watched as his eyes seemed to be fixated on the ceiling above. He took in the features off his face like it was the first time he was seeing him all over again. Everything about the blond next to him was perfect. He meant the world to him, and Izzy's heart immediately warmed as he took in the blue of his eyes once more. Kaoru didn't even have to be looking at him for Izzy's heart to skip a beat upon seeing those eyes.
I don't regret this, Izzy. D-do you?
A small sigh escaped him as he wiggled away from Kaoru to turn on his side. He brought up a hand to Kaoru's cheek, gently attempting to turn his head to face him. He gazed at his eyes yet again for a long moment before speaking. "No. There's never been a moment in your life where you've ever done anything wrong concerning me." Anything that was messed up between them was all Izzy's fault. He was sure anyone who knew their story, which was all of no one, would have no arguments there. "You're the best thing that's ever happened to me.... I don't... think I regret it. I'm just afraid." He finally let out the truth, a tear actually escaping one of his eyes, rolling down his face and onto the pillow. "Did I hurt you? Are you... in pain at all?" He had to look away from Kaoru's eyes, focusing his gaze on the soft skin of his chest just to compose himself for a moment before looking right back up at his eyes. "I've never..." His face slightly reddened, cheeks heating up. He never thought he'd admit it, but it's not like he'd ever had a significant other of any sort before or any one night stands at that. "I've never done that before. I don't know... if I was gentle enough." He'd felt a little too eager through out the whole thing, and worried that he might have been slightly too aggressive about it all. Then again, he really liked being aggressive, he just wasn't sure about Kaoru. The most important thing to him was being compatible with him in order to actually make him happy.
He stroked his thumb gently against's Kaoru's cheek before dropping his hand and slowly lifting himself into a sitting position, letting the blanket drop down and stay on his lap. He let out a sigh. "You probably want to get clean, don't you?" Izzy's heart still hadn't really quit fluttering, but he was sure that was going to be a side effect for a while. [attr="class","square1"] [attr="class","square2"] [attr="class","square3"] [attr="class","square4"] [googlefont="Lobster"] [newclass=.summer1]width:500px;height:530px;background-image:url('http://i.imgur.com/yOw7ja5.jpg'); repeat: yes; border: 10px solid #8e6da0;position:relative:z-index:2;[/newclass] [newclass=.banner]width:420px;height:70px;margin-left:-120px;margin-top:30px;background-color:#5b1e74;color:#8e6da0;text-shadow:1px 2px 0px #6d298a;position:relative;z-index:3;font-size:8px;line-height:100%;[/newclass] [newclass=.bigpic]width:150px;height:500px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:5px;border:solid 1px #666666;float:right;margin-right:10px;margin-top:-91px;position:relative;z-index:4;[/newclass] [newclass=.triangle]font-size:29px; color:#6d298a;margin-top:-19px;margin-left:-348px;position:relative:z-index:-1;[/newclass] [newclass=.sumtext]width:300px;height:400px;background-color:#8e6da0;font-family: calibri; font-size: 11px; text-align: justify; padding:10px; overflow: auto; line-height: 100%; color: #444444border: 1px solid #666666;margin-top:150px;margin-left:-50px;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass] [newclass=.square1]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-10px;margin-left:-10px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square2]width:32px;height:32px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:3px;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-40px; margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square3]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:3px; margin-left:-9px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square4]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-40px;margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes"]width:150px;padding:15px;margin:auto;background-color:#8e6da0;color:#222;font-size:7px;text-align:justify;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-147px;margin-left:175px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass]
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Post by Kaoru Himura on Apr 26, 2016 21:56:51 GMT
WORD COUNT BY MINNIE OF WW AND IT'S DARK ON A COLD DECEMBER, No. There's never been a moment in your life where you've ever done anything wrong concerning me.
Never? He really believed what he was saying and it made Kaoru's heart just flutter a little bit, like his heart was slowly warming up in the strangest way possible. Though his blue eyes carried a small flash of guilt through them, he was slowly failing to pinpoint a proper reason as to why Izzy looked so sad. "Never?" He hushed, biting on his bottom lip.
You're the best thing that's ever happened to me.... I don't... think I regret it. I'm just afraid.
Kaoru's eyes ran back and forth as his brain tried its best to consume Izzy's words. Why was he afraid? Kaoru's lips pursed against his will, his mind racing back and forth without any control, making him remain silent for a little before he gave a weak shake of his head, most of it was controlled by the pillow under his head, he also did it to snap out of his thoughts before they could swallow him whole. "Why are you afraid, Izz?" Kaoru mumbled, waiting for an answer rather patiently than pressing on him until he'd speak.
Did I hurt you? Are you... in pain at all? I've never... I've never done that before. I don't know... if I was gentle enough.
Kaoru's cheeks warmed up faintly as he heard his question. "N-no! I'm not in pain," he stammered quickly just before he'd get the wrong idea in his head. Though he feels a bit funny in his chest after all of it, he can feel some great attraction toward Izzy, one he'd never felt before. It was slowly tugging him forward with an emotional tether. "You were gentle, it felt very.. natural to me. I liked it," he responded honestly, giving a weak smile of his own. "If I was uncomfortable, I would have told you. I made you a promise didn't I?" He reminded him of before, shrugging one shoulder.
You probably want to get clean, don't you?
Kaoru sat up as well, a little behind Izzy. "A shower sounds good right now, but only if you take one with me." He mumbled, leaning forward to press his lips against Izzy's skin, giving him a few delicate kisses than ran down to his spine before coming back up to place one behind his ear, nibbling on his earlobe. "Please?" He whispered in his ear, pressing another kiss on his shoulder before giving it a small bite, though he made sure not to press too hard to draw any blood, he'd never hurt him like that.
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Post by Izanagi Kita on Apr 27, 2016 2:10:06 GMT
[attr="class","summer1"] [attr="class","banner"] my only one~ [attr="class","bigpic"] [attr="class","triangle"]◄ Made my mistakes, let you down. And I can't hold on for too long. Ran my whole life in the ground. And I can't get up when you're gone * Never?
"Never." The response came out immediately after that word had left Kaoru's lips. He couldn't stress that to him enough. Kaoru had shown him more kindness then anyone else had ever bothered with in his life. Even though it was Kaoru's parents that had taken him in after his father's death, Kaoru was the one who'd gotten him through it. He was there for him through every hard time in the past up until he'd started pushing him away.
Why are you afraid, Izz?
Everything. There was no way to process that question whether than just to let him know he was afraid of being too rough. There were so many other issues on top of that, but that was the one he could have the answer for more easily.
N-no! I'm not in pain.
That was a relief to do. The last thing he wanted was the opposite answer of that. All of his want and eagerness had felt as though it'd come out all at one time. Something had taken him over as he'd taken Kaoru's body. He'd never gotten to feel it in quite so many places. He'd never gotten to experience the rush of their skin brushing and pushing together so closely. Thinking back on in again got his heart pumping in his chest a little faster. He was never going to forget today. He was sure of it. He really hoped to remember every detail, and he was definitely going to replay it in his mind again later when Kaoru wasn't around. That was a given.
You were gentle, it felt very.. natural to me. I liked it. If I was uncomfortable, I would have told you. I made you a promise didn't I?
Izzy let out a sigh but then smiled at him. How could he not smile when Kaoru just told him that he'd liked it? "Yeah. You did." He supposed he was just thinking too hard on it all, because he thought so highly of Kaoru.
A shower sounds good right now, but only if you take one with me.
A devilish smile took over Izzy's lips, one that he hoped Kaoru wasn't able to notice with his lips against his skin. He groaned lightly as Kaoru's lips nibbled on his earlobe. It felt nice, and Izzy still had to keep reminding himself that he wasn't in a dream. This was real. This was actual Kaoru kissing his body. This wasn't just another fantasy of his. It was really happening. It had really happened.
Please?
Kaoru's bite sent a shudder down his spine. "How can I say no when you're asking like that?" He smirked. This felt like the upgraded version of the puppy dog eyes. If he had trouble saying no to those before, he was doomed against this new tactic. He'd buy Kaoru a fucking ocean if he'd asked for it like that. He'd sell his soul to obtain it.
Izzy pulled away for Kaoru and got on his knees before pulling the blanket off of the other boy. His cheeks were slightly red as he took in the view, but that didn't stop him from attempting to wrap one arm underneath his legs and the other underneath one of his arms and around his back as he attempted to pick him up bridal style. Holding Kaoru made his heart flutter. Assuming he'd been able to pick him up, he got off the bed and took him over to what he thought was the bathroom door and took Kaoru in, setting him down inside. [attr="class","square1"] [attr="class","square2"] [attr="class","square3"] [attr="class","square4"] [googlefont="Lobster"] [newclass=.summer1]width:500px;height:530px;background-image:url('http://i.imgur.com/yOw7ja5.jpg'); repeat: yes; border: 10px solid #8e6da0;position:relative:z-index:2;[/newclass] [newclass=.banner]width:420px;height:70px;margin-left:-120px;margin-top:30px;background-color:#5b1e74;color:#8e6da0;text-shadow:1px 2px 0px #6d298a;position:relative;z-index:3;font-size:8px;line-height:100%;[/newclass] [newclass=.bigpic]width:150px;height:500px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:5px;border:solid 1px #666666;float:right;margin-right:10px;margin-top:-91px;position:relative;z-index:4;[/newclass] [newclass=.triangle]font-size:29px; color:#6d298a;margin-top:-19px;margin-left:-348px;position:relative:z-index:-1;[/newclass] [newclass=.sumtext]width:300px;height:400px;background-color:#8e6da0;font-family: calibri; font-size: 11px; text-align: justify; padding:10px; overflow: auto; line-height: 100%; color: #444444border: 1px solid #666666;margin-top:150px;margin-left:-50px;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass] [newclass=.square1]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-10px;margin-left:-10px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square2]width:32px;height:32px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:3px;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-40px; margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square3]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:3px; margin-left:-9px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square4]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-40px;margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes"]width:150px;padding:15px;margin:auto;background-color:#8e6da0;color:#222;font-size:7px;text-align:justify;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-147px;margin-left:175px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass]
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Post by Kaoru Himura on Apr 28, 2016 0:32:41 GMT
WORD COUNT BY MINNIE OF WW AND IT'S DARK ON A COLD DECEMBER, No hesitation in his tone. Honestly, it made Kaoru's heart skip a beat rather dangerously than anything else. He felt a smile tug on his lips rather mindlessly as he stared at Izzy with a lot of emotions swirling through his hues. He didn't know what to say for the most part so he remained silent and still, like a statue being viewed by others and soon enough they'd pass him by and simply look at another. The situation didn't apply to Izzy, he wanted to cherish Kaoru for a strange reason, then again, love took away all their senses and kept their heart beating in a strange way. He was beginning to feel it too and his stomach felt a bit.. funny, if he dared to admit out loud.
Izzy meant a lot to Kaoru. He meant more than he let on, honestly. He licked his bottom lip, the one that had gone dry, same as his throat, prompting the boy to get up and search for water to drink as his body ran out of energy slowly. He gnawed at his inner cheeks, waiting for the other to say something about the offer of taking a shower together. His bathroom wasn't fancy, to say the least, but it was big enough to take two at the same time. He felt a victorious smile tug on his lips at Izzy's response.
He gave a chuckle at his words before arching an eyebrow in confusion. "What are you doing?" The question slipped before he could stop his lips from moving. He released a gasp when his body was lifted off the mattress and his arm wrapped around Izzy out of an instinct of securing himself or holding onto something.. solid and real. "You're really full of surprises." He chuckled half-heartedly, looking at Izzy when he sat him down.
"What, I'm your princess now?" Kaoru faked an upset face before his lips quivered then it broke into a grin, turning to slowly turn on the water to check the heat. He used his free hand to collect his hair on one side, he gave a satisfied hum, straightening his back. "Okay, it's ready." He told the other, turning around to look at him. "It's warm, I can make it cold if you want and then we could share body heat and make it extra warm." He felt incredibly cheesy afterward. "I'm sorry, I read that once in one of the books." Kaoru explained with a chuckle.
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Post by Izanagi Kita on Apr 28, 2016 1:04:33 GMT
[attr="class","summer1"] [attr="class","banner"] my only one~ [attr="class","bigpic"] [attr="class","triangle"]◄ Made my mistakes, let you down. And I can't hold on for too long. Ran my whole life in the ground. And I can't get up when you're gone * "What does it look like I'm doing?" Izzy smirked. "I thought it was obvious." Now he was just teasing him. He was feeling rather playful, surprised at himself for being able to let go of all of the bad emotions tugging at his heart strings and warning him that this could all go so wrong. The minute he left Kaoru's dorm room the worry was going to immediately take over. He just didn't want to think about it right now. He'd deal with all the consciousnesses later. Right now he just wanted to enjoy the dream that he felt he was actually getting to live. "Surprises? Ha. How do you know this isn't just a trick in disguise?"
"Well you do kind of resemble a pretty girl with that hair of yours," he teased though he didn't think of Kaoru as a girl in the slightest of ways. He wondered if it would even make a difference if he was a girl. Izzy only like guys, but that list of guys once consisted of one guy. That guy was Kaoru, so would it even matter if he wasn't a guy? The thought was confusing, and he pushed it out of his mind to avoid any kinds of headaches from it.
Izzy's head turned to the side as he watched Kaoru fix the water while he leaned his back against the door way. He still had yet to put anything on, and Izzy really couldn't get enough of the view. He'd been wanting to see it practically his whole life. He felt like a bit of a creep for staring, but did it really matter if Kaoru wasn't watching him back? He'd never know.
It's warm, I can make it cold if you want and then we could share body heat and make it extra warm. I'm sorry, I read that once in one of the books.
Izzy's eyes widened slightly, but then his facial expression changed into one with a grin. "If I didn't know any better, I'd say you were trying to turn me on again, Kaoru." He smirked, teasing him once more before walking over and stepping underneath the water. "It's perfect." He held out a hand for Kaoru. [attr="class","square1"] [attr="class","square2"] [attr="class","square3"] [attr="class","square4"] [googlefont="Lobster"] [newclass=.summer1]width:500px;height:530px;background-image:url('http://i.imgur.com/yOw7ja5.jpg'); repeat: yes; border: 10px solid #8e6da0;position:relative:z-index:2;[/newclass] [newclass=.banner]width:420px;height:70px;margin-left:-120px;margin-top:30px;background-color:#5b1e74;color:#8e6da0;text-shadow:1px 2px 0px #6d298a;position:relative;z-index:3;font-size:8px;line-height:100%;[/newclass] [newclass=.bigpic]width:150px;height:500px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:5px;border:solid 1px #666666;float:right;margin-right:10px;margin-top:-91px;position:relative;z-index:4;[/newclass] [newclass=.triangle]font-size:29px; color:#6d298a;margin-top:-19px;margin-left:-348px;position:relative:z-index:-1;[/newclass] [newclass=.sumtext]width:300px;height:400px;background-color:#8e6da0;font-family: calibri; font-size: 11px; text-align: justify; padding:10px; overflow: auto; line-height: 100%; color: #444444border: 1px solid #666666;margin-top:150px;margin-left:-50px;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass] [newclass=.square1]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-10px;margin-left:-10px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square2]width:32px;height:32px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:3px;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-40px; margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square3]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:3px; margin-left:-9px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square4]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-40px;margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes"]width:150px;padding:15px;margin:auto;background-color:#8e6da0;color:#222;font-size:7px;text-align:justify;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-147px;margin-left:175px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass]
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Post by Kaoru Himura on Apr 28, 2016 12:03:05 GMT
WORD COUNT BY MINNIE OF WW AND IT'S DARK ON A COLD DECEMBER, Surprises? Ha. How do you know this isn't just a trick in disguise?
Kaoru gave a soft hum as if he was searching hard for a proper answer in his head. "Maybe because you'd never trick me," he was playing over-confident again. It felt good to feel the humorous air around them, it eased the tension greatly. His lips couldn't hold back the grin, that seemed to happen a lot whenever he had a chat with Izzy, it was almost natural for him to smile like that. As he held Izzy close, he could feel his hair tingling the bare skin of his arm, reminding him that this was actually happening and not some dream he was shoved into after what happened. Either way, Kaoru was satisfied.
Well you do kind of resemble a pretty girl with that hair of yours,
Kaoru chuckled at that, "really now? Why thank you," he responded back with ease. If he was someone else, he would've frowned by now. Looking like a girl would be offensive to them, but Kaoru took that pretty well and even laughed about it, it wasn't really offensive, maybe because he knew Izzy didn't think of him as a girl so that remark didn't really matter to him anyway.
If I didn't know any better, I'd say you were trying to turn me on again, Kaoru.
Kaoru gasped, shaking his head. "I would never do such a thing," he chuckled, his cheeks heating up slowly. His eyes slowly moved down Izzy's exposed body, reminding himself they weren't covering themselves with anything. His cheeks burnt bright red again before he relaxed upon seeing Izzy's hand extended to take his own in them. He gladly took it and stepped underneath the water, releasing a small sigh of pleasure as the water dropped on his body.
Though he had to remind himself that he wasn't taking a shower alone. His heart skipped a beat upon remembering that Izzy was right there, next to him. He didn't wait for the other to kiss him, instead, his hand came over to settle on his neck, attempting to pull him down for a kiss, a bold action for someone who'd been blushing not too long ago. Kaoru felt pleased with what he had, possibly for the first time as well. Drawing away from the kiss, he went back to his old mission of getting them both clean. He took a small pause to let his hands press against Izzy's chest, perhaps using the excuse of cleaning to actually touch him. His blue eyes went up to meet with the other's in a gaze before he drew his hands back to clean his hair, handing over the extra shampoo to the other. "Here," he said softly, letting his fingers run down the length of his hair with ease. He took care of his hair quite often to not face complications when it comes to combing it, so that saved him from a lot of troubles right now.
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Post by Izanagi Kita on Apr 29, 2016 2:12:52 GMT
[attr="class","summer1"] [attr="class","banner"] my only one~ [attr="class","bigpic"] [attr="class","triangle"]◄ Made my mistakes, let you down. And I can't hold on for too long. Ran my whole life in the ground. And I can't get up when you're gone * Maybe because you'd never trick me.
Kaoru's smile caused warmth to spread through his whole body, and made him smirk himself. He seemed so sure of that, and it was adorable. "You sound really sure of that." His heart was thudding in his chest again as he continued to watch Kaoru's blue eyes. His emotions couldn't have been more heightened after everything they'd just been through together. His smirk lightened into a soft smile, one that felt almost unavoidable in the moment. He brushed his fingers against his skin, taking into the softness once more. He'd never get enough of the way the other felt when they brushed together.
Really now? Why thank you.
"You're welcome, Princess." Izzy had a wide grin on his face as he tossed another teasing remark a the other. There had been times in the past when he'd been worried about offending Kaoru, but he hoped that by now he knew him well enough by now to know that he'd never actually try to hurt his feelings with his words. Kaoru was the only person he'd never actually had a bad thought about. People were always saying that once you're around someone too much in your life you're bound to start hating all the little things about them, but that really didn't seem to be the case when it came to Kaoru. He was too special. Even when he'd told him about his girlfriend for the first time, Izzy hadn't had even a slice of anger for him. He only felt heart break in that moment. The anger he felt later was just completely directed at the girl. He'd hate her forever, but he did feel a little more at ease knowing he'd now been places she hadn't been when it came to Kaoru. Thinking about it gave him a bit of confidence of his own.
I would never do such a thing.
Izzy grinned devilishly. "No?" His bottom lip turned down into a pout. "That's too bad." He admitted, but spoke as though he were joking. Inside he really wasn't. He liked feeling as though Kaoru wanted him in that way, even if it were really just him being the one to want to be all over Kaoru. Izzy's eyes fixated on Kaoru's cheeks, noticing the sudden tint of color in them. His grin spread wider on his face as Kaoru took his hand to enter into the water.
After they were both in the water, Izzy was pulled down for a kiss and he didn't resist it. His felt his heart start beating a little bit faster, and he had the sudden urge to pinch himself to yet again get a reminder that this was real. Izzy looked a little dazed when Kaoru pulled away, having been taken by surprise with that last kiss.
Here.
Izzy took the shampoo that was offered to him and smeared it on his hands before forgetting a small detail. He pulled his braid over his shoulder and started unraveling, tossing the hair tie out behind the curtain and onto Kaoru's bathroom floor before taking his hands and running them through the long red strands. He had a habit of making messes. His eyes stayed fixated on Kaoru, and then he moved his hands from his own hair and started running them through Kaoru's instead. "This is nice," he admitted in a quiet voice. It was more than nice. It was absolutely phenomenal to feel like this. [attr="class","square1"] [attr="class","square2"] [attr="class","square3"] [attr="class","square4"] [googlefont="Lobster"] [newclass=.summer1]width:500px;height:530px;background-image:url('http://i.imgur.com/yOw7ja5.jpg'); repeat: yes; border: 10px solid #8e6da0;position:relative:z-index:2;[/newclass] [newclass=.banner]width:420px;height:70px;margin-left:-120px;margin-top:30px;background-color:#5b1e74;color:#8e6da0;text-shadow:1px 2px 0px #6d298a;position:relative;z-index:3;font-size:8px;line-height:100%;[/newclass] [newclass=.bigpic]width:150px;height:500px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:5px;border:solid 1px #666666;float:right;margin-right:10px;margin-top:-91px;position:relative;z-index:4;[/newclass] [newclass=.triangle]font-size:29px; color:#6d298a;margin-top:-19px;margin-left:-348px;position:relative:z-index:-1;[/newclass] [newclass=.sumtext]width:300px;height:400px;background-color:#8e6da0;font-family: calibri; font-size: 11px; text-align: justify; padding:10px; overflow: auto; line-height: 100%; color: #444444border: 1px solid #666666;margin-top:150px;margin-left:-50px;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass] [newclass=.square1]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-10px;margin-left:-10px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square2]width:32px;height:32px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:3px;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-40px; margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square3]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:3px; margin-left:-9px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square4]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-40px;margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes"]width:150px;padding:15px;margin:auto;background-color:#8e6da0;color:#222;font-size:7px;text-align:justify;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-147px;margin-left:175px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass]
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