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Post by Kaoru Himura on Apr 29, 2016 22:01:20 GMT
WORD COUNT BY MINNIE OF WW AND IT'S DARK ON A COLD DECEMBER, No? That's too bad.
Kaoru's eyebrows rose as his eyes ran down to look at his pout, it made his heart clench tightly in his chest, it was almost uncomfortable to breathe. "With that pout, I'm sure I can change the answer," he teased lightly, allowing a small smile to stretch upon his lips. Really, if Izzy gave him a pout anytime, he could change a lot of things in order to satisfy him. If his parents saw that pout, they might rethink the mere thought they had about Kaoru's puppy dog eyes and how it could easily persuade them in a few minutes, he was pretty sure the pout could win their favors in just simple seconds.
It felt nice, to lead a kiss and surprise Izzy since he was the one who constantly surprised Kaoru and made him do a lot of things. He chuckled a bit at his reaction, but it was just an excuse to hide the blush that was heating up the skin of his cheeks. Any simple move from the other could easily burn his cheeks in bright red, something he'd regret soon after for acting like a girl who'd recently confessed to her crush.
This is nice,
He hummed, in satisfaction as he felt Izzy's hand run through his hair with the shampoo. "Very nice." He hushed quietly, allowing Izzy to do as he pleased while he simply relaxed his tense shoulders and enjoyed the movements that brought nothing but love in them. He could feel Izzy's affection through loving words and gentle touches. It made him think why this didn't happen anytime sooner, before he met Akira, and before everything. They could've been simply happy. Though he was pretty happy like this.
"Never leave me, okay?" It slipped before his mind could register what he was babbling out. Kaoru knew the other would never hurt him, would never do anything against his will and would never wound his soul or say offensive words in a heat of the moment during an argument, but he knew exactly Izzy was holding back on a lot of things, such as cussing words just to not terrify Kaoru. "Please take care of me," that also slipped and by the time his mind snapped out of its endless circles, his mouth was agape and eyes widening slowly.
"I, um, sorry." He quickly pressed his lips together and washed his hair rather quickly to slip out, grabbing a towel to wrap it tightly around his lower waist. "Do you, um, wanna eat? Heh, I'm pretty hungry."
- - i think i love you better now
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Post by Izanagi Kita on May 3, 2016 1:26:31 GMT
[attr="class","summer1"] [attr="class","banner"] my only one~ [attr="class","bigpic"] [attr="class","triangle"]◄ Made my mistakes, let you down. And I can't hold on for too long. Ran my whole life in the ground. And I can't get up when you're gone * With that pout, I'm sure I can change the answer.
Izzy's pout twisted into another devilish smile. He liked the sound of that, and he definitely had something to add onto it. He would have two if a thought in his mind hadn't told him to stop. He turned his devilish grin into a softened smile. "There's no need. You just be you." He felt a little bad about it all suddenly as though his flirting was making Kaoru feel like he had to slut it up for him or something. He wasn't just some play thing, and Izzy realized he might have been coming on way too strong. He was afraid of making him feel bad when all he really wanted was to make Kaoru feel good about himself. Even with Kaoru's clearly teasing smile, he was second guessing himself.
Never leave me, okay? Please take care of me.
Izzy froze, taking a moment to process those words. He stopped all movement and even breathing for a good few seconds before remembering to take in oxygen while looking at Kaoru's eyes once again. Izzy would never want to leave Kaoru. He'd been all he'd ever desired in life. He'd had an obsessive crush over him for so long. Still, he wasn't entirely sure he was willing to let himself have this. He was already having thoughts about packing his bags as soon as he got back to his dorm, getting a passport and buying a plane ticket to a whole 'nother country. He was so afraid to stay here and completely ruin Kaoru's life. It really wasn't that he wanted to hurt him. No piece of him did. He just felt like leaving the next day after the mess he'd created would save Kaoru from getting hurt further along the line just from Izzy being such a needy, selfish, obsessive person. He also would never need to tell his parents what'd happened between them then. There was no way they'd approve. Izzy was sure they'd disown them despite the fact that they'd even referred to him as their own son. Then Kaoru would feel bad for it, like he'd taken part in that, and Izzy wouldn't be able to handle it. He'd messed up so much already.
Still, hearing those words made him tense up inside. How could he leave when Kaoru asked in such a way? He felt like such a monster for even considering it. Izzy always felt as though he knew what was best for Kaoru, but it wasn't like Kaoru couldn't handle himself. He was so mixed up. So confused. He was hoping to be able to put these thoughts off just a bit longer. He swallowed his emotions and spoke a simple answer. "Okay." He wanted to take care of Kaoru. His words just gave Izzy so much confusion. He felt like to truly take care of him, he'd almost have to leave. The water rinsed from Izzy's hand and he brought up his thumb to trace over the lips of Kaoru's agape mouth before removing it to lean forward and give him a small kiss. He'd pulled back immediately, but just for the moment their lips touched, Izzy felt so much pain inside for not knowing what he was truly supposed to be doing for him. He muscles felt like they were all tensing up, and he almost couldn't bare it though he did his best to keep the softest expression he could manage. Kaoru made him so happy, but it was like he was incapble of allowing himself to just have it. He had so many fears that were still refusing to let go. He was his boyfriend now. Finally. Something that was never supposed to happen. Why couldn't he just let go of all the insecurities?
I, um, sorry.
Izzy tilted his head to the side watching Kaoru slip out of the water. "Nothing to apologize for..." he responded quietly, uneven sure he'd be able to hear him as he observed. Izzy stepped out himself. "What towels... don't belong to your roommate?" That question was laced with jealousy as he crossed his arms, not really sure. It reminded him that he shared this place with another man, and now that it was obvious that Kaoru shared at least some attraction to men Izzy was all the more worried.
Do you, um, wanna eat? Heh, I'm pretty hungry.
Izzy shrugged, ringing the water out of his long, red hair. "Yeah, sure." He wasn't entirely hungry, having way too many different emotions swirling around in his stomach, but he wasn't going to deny Kaoru food. "You wanna go out for something or eat in or what?" [attr="class","square1"] [attr="class","square2"] [attr="class","square3"] [attr="class","square4"] [googlefont="Lobster"] [newclass=.summer1]width:500px;height:530px;background-image:url('http://i.imgur.com/yOw7ja5.jpg'); repeat: yes; border: 10px solid #8e6da0;position:relative:z-index:2;[/newclass] [newclass=.banner]width:420px;height:70px;margin-left:-120px;margin-top:30px;background-color:#5b1e74;color:#8e6da0;text-shadow:1px 2px 0px #6d298a;position:relative;z-index:3;font-size:8px;line-height:100%;[/newclass] [newclass=.bigpic]width:150px;height:500px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:5px;border:solid 1px #666666;float:right;margin-right:10px;margin-top:-91px;position:relative;z-index:4;[/newclass] [newclass=.triangle]font-size:29px; color:#6d298a;margin-top:-19px;margin-left:-348px;position:relative:z-index:-1;[/newclass] [newclass=.sumtext]width:300px;height:400px;background-color:#8e6da0;font-family: calibri; font-size: 11px; text-align: justify; padding:10px; overflow: auto; line-height: 100%; color: #444444border: 1px solid #666666;margin-top:150px;margin-left:-50px;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass] [newclass=.square1]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-10px;margin-left:-10px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square2]width:32px;height:32px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:3px;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-40px; margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square3]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:3px; margin-left:-9px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square4]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-40px;margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes"]width:150px;padding:15px;margin:auto;background-color:#8e6da0;color:#222;font-size:7px;text-align:justify;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-147px;margin-left:175px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass]
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Post by Kaoru Himura on May 6, 2016 23:34:53 GMT
WORD COUNT BY MINNIE OF WW AND IT'S DARK ON A COLD DECEMBER, There's no need. You just be you.
Kaoru looked into his eyes for a few moments before he dipped his head down and merely kept his eyes fixed there. "I am me, Izzy." He hushed quietly to the other, pressing his lips into a thin line. Did Izzy think he was being someone else other than himself? Honestly, he barely felt anything out of the ordinary. Perhaps it only took him today to feel good and then tomorrow would be the start of his worries, on how he should approach his parents about the subject of his sexuality - he was not ready to approach them about such a thing and definitely not ready to see the flash of disappointment running across his father's face. Kaoru just had to push aside those worries for now and perhaps think about them tomorrow where he'd feel distressed about everything.
Okay.
Such a simple answer made his cheeks heat up uncontrollably, barely realizing it until it was too late. Kaoru's lips stretched into an honest smile without even breaking a sweat. His lower lip froze upon feeling the pad of Izzy's thumb run across his lips, eyes glued together until he saw Izzy's head close in and that's when his eyes closed automatically, pressing their lips together in a kiss that ended way too quickly for his lips to savor the taste of the other.
He chased after his lips and left behind a quick peck before drawing back as well, still smiling like a complete idiot. It wasn't long before the two of them were out of the bath, he quirked an eyebrow at his question, resting a hand on his hip. "Well, I'm not sure, we kinda keep using each other's towels, by mistake of course." He sheepishly replied back, "but! don't worry please, it's something very simple and he doesn't really mind.." Kaoru was quick to shake his hands dismissively at the other before he could get worried. "The one on the left belongs to me, though!" so if the one on the left was his, then whose towel was he wearing? Typical Kaoru.
You wanna go out for something or eat in or what?
"Mm, I'm really not up for going out right now, my body is a bit.. sore, I guess. A good sore! Not a bad one. So um, we can eat here because I miss your delicious cooking." Kaoru went back to his bedroom to pick out comfortable clothes. "Hey, do you wanna borrow some clothes? It might get cold and a blanket alone won't do you any good." Kaoru explained while going through his stuff. Upon picking out a good sleepwear, he laid them gracefully on the bed and started to dry his body with the towel once he awkwardly tugged it off his body. "We have everything in the kitchen, Mikky - I mean Michael said he'd grocery shopping soon, so I'm sorry if anything's missing out in there."
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Post by Izanagi Kita on May 7, 2016 20:59:16 GMT
[attr="class","summer1"] [attr="class","banner"] my only one~ [attr="class","bigpic"] [attr="class","triangle"]◄ Made my mistakes, let you down. And I can't hold on for too long. Ran my whole life in the ground. And I can't get up when you're gone * I am me, Izzy.
Izzy just have Kaoru a small smile at that statement, not saying anything. If he was being honest with himself, he'd have to admit that a small piece of him felt that Kaoru had only gone through with all of this for Izzy's benefit. Then he immediately shook the thought away. Kaoru would never do something like that only to crush him later on. He was far too kind and sweet, and Izzy knew that he was just being paranoid. It was just hard to believe that the one he'd wanted nearly his entire life was now his. All of those nights staying up in heart ache over never being able to have Kaoru felt like such a waste of time now. He doubted it, but he wondered if he'd kissed Kaoru sooner if this would have happened sooner. He figured not for multiple reasons, but it wasn't like he would have ever been brave enough before. The only reason he'd started anything in the first place was because they'd been away so long that he'd just lost all control.
Kaoru chased his kissed and left another upon catching up, bringing a soft smile to Izzy's face as his heart fluttered in his chest yet again. He doubted the effects Kaoru had on his heart would ever stop or even slow down with time. He held a power over him and probably didn't even realize the extent of that.
Well, I'm not sure, we kinda keep using each other's towels, by mistake of course.
Izzy's right eye began to twitch and his mouth fell open ever so slightly. Using each other's towels was indirect touching. Kaoru's roommate was touching him. Kaoru was his, and the thought of anyone else touching him through touching anything else that touched his naked body made him want to bash a few heads against the concrete. It was a violent, vicious thought that he'd never dare share with Kaoru was it was still a thought nonetheless.
But! don't worry please, it's something very simple and he doesn't really mind..
Oh man. Kaoru really didn't get the point of his concern. Not in the slightest. Izzy's eye didn't want to stop twitching, but he did his best to force it too, taking in a deep breath. If he didn't, surely he was going to begin lecturing Kaoru once again. He hated when he did that to him, but sometimes it wasn't really something he could help.
The one on the left belongs to me, though!
Izzy looked over at the towel hanging up and then at the one Kaoru was wearing. That probably mean Kaoru was wearing a towel that had touched some other guy's body. Izzy let go of the hair he was ringing out, still trying to tame his twitching, and took a few steps closer to Kaoru. He grabbed the towel and tugged on it once a bit for emphasis before letting it go. He kept his eyes on Kaoru. "Ever heard of air drying?" He was bullshitting, something he was really good at, or at least he felt he was good at. If this didn't work he could always just turn his excuse for saying such a thing into one that would simply spotlight his perverted ways. "They say it's much better for the skin."
Mm, I'm really not up for going out right now, my body is a bit.. sore, I guess. A good sore! Not a bad one. So um, we can eat here because I miss your delicious cooking.
Izzy was about to protest the fact that he didn't make him stop while they were going at it with the sore comment, but stopped himself when Kaoru added onto it. Sore was supposed to be natural anyways, wasn't it? He wasn't really sure there was a real way around such a thing.
"Okay..." Izzy responded. "What do you want me to cook?" He'd do anything Kaoru asked even if it involved him picking up a few things. He'd not wanted to do so before, trying to be stubborn with the whole distance thing, but now that he'd some how ended up as his boyfriend, he supposed it was a lost cause. "And don't tell me whatever I want." He made sure to add that part on. "It's your choice. Let me spoil you."
Izzy watched as Kaoru walked back to his bedroom, turning his head slightly to the side to follow his ass as he'd walked. It was probably not something he should have been doing, but Kaoru wasn't watching him, so what was really the harm in it?
Hey, do you wanna borrow some clothes? It might get cold and a blanket alone won't do you any good.
He scanned over the features of his bathroom one more time before walking out. "I can, um, just slip on what I had, and change when I get back to my dorm." He shrugged, but definitely became a bit saddened by the thought of having to leave Kaoru at some point despite it being what he felt he was supposed to of done from the very beginning. He looked around Kaoru's bed, finally finding his pants and picking them up before going in search of the rest of his clothing.
We have everything in the kitchen, Mikky - I mean Michael said he'd grocery shopping soon, so I'm sorry if anything's missing out in there.
Mikky?! The eye twitching was back, more intense then before as the jealousy began to seep in once again. Everything about what Kaoru had just spoken sounded way too couple-y for Izzy's liking. His eyes went over to Kaoru for a moment as he found the rest of his clothes and started slipping his pants on. "Are you sure you don't just want to wait for Mikky to get home to cook for you?" He comment was definitely sharp, a lot sharper than he'd wanted it to come out, and he swallowed hard in regret immediately after he'd said it out loud. His jealousy was something he'd probably never be able to control. It drove him to do and say awful things, manipulating many people and definitely causing him to be rude. [attr="class","square1"] [attr="class","square2"] [attr="class","square3"] [attr="class","square4"] [googlefont="Lobster"] [newclass=.summer1]width:500px;height:530px;background-image:url('http://i.imgur.com/yOw7ja5.jpg'); repeat: yes; border: 10px solid #8e6da0;position:relative:z-index:2;[/newclass] [newclass=.banner]width:420px;height:70px;margin-left:-120px;margin-top:30px;background-color:#5b1e74;color:#8e6da0;text-shadow:1px 2px 0px #6d298a;position:relative;z-index:3;font-size:8px;line-height:100%;[/newclass] [newclass=.bigpic]width:150px;height:500px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:5px;border:solid 1px #666666;float:right;margin-right:10px;margin-top:-91px;position:relative;z-index:4;[/newclass] [newclass=.triangle]font-size:29px; color:#6d298a;margin-top:-19px;margin-left:-348px;position:relative:z-index:-1;[/newclass] [newclass=.sumtext]width:300px;height:400px;background-color:#8e6da0;font-family: calibri; font-size: 11px; text-align: justify; padding:10px; overflow: auto; line-height: 100%; color: #444444border: 1px solid #666666;margin-top:150px;margin-left:-50px;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".sumtext::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass] [newclass=.square1]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-10px;margin-left:-10px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square2]width:32px;height:32px;background-color:#8e6da0;padding:3px;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-40px; margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square3]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:3px; margin-left:-9px;[/newclass] [newclass=.square4]width:40px;height:40px;background-color:#5b1e74;margin-top:-40px;margin-left:76px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes"]width:150px;padding:15px;margin:auto;background-color:#8e6da0;color:#222;font-size:7px;text-align:justify;border:solid 1px #666666;margin-top:-147px;margin-left:175px;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar"]width: 3px; background:#f6f6f6;[/newclass] [newclass=".notes::-webkit-scrollbar-thumb"]width: 3px;background:#000;[/newclass]
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Post by Kaoru Himura on May 11, 2016 0:24:23 GMT
WORD COUNT BY MINNIE OF WW AND IT'S DARK ON A COLD DECEMBER, When people said Kaoru was oblivious, if not a little dense when it comes to people around them and his own mistakes, they wouldn't be lying. He mistook a few situations that might've changed everything if he took them seriously enough. He never knew Izzy felt that way about him and he just assumed that he was good at hiding his feelings. That must've been the reason. Otherwise, he would think he kept Izzy in pain for so long and even brought a girlfriend home and never once acknowledged his feelings - that alone caused the man's heart to clench uncomfortably in his chest. He really had to stop thinking about that, it was a bit too much for him.
Ever heard of air drying? They say it's much better for the skin.
He allowed the towel to slip past his fingertips without resisting the other. Blinking a few times at the sudden action and then his next words made him wonder. "No, no, not really." From the looks of it, Izzy was more educated than him, he knew everything and that made Kaoru look up to him in ways more than just one. He held an attraction to the other, perhaps not on the same level, but he knew he'd get there. "Oh really? Thanks for telling me! I'll be sure to buy one soon." He commented back, running a hand through his hair. "You sure know a lot. What would I even do without you." It was a simple statement, not a tough question, he knew they were both too tired to have a long chat.
Okay... What do you want me to cook? And don't tell me whatever I want. It's your choice. Let me spoil you.
That was a tough question. "Whatever you wa-" the respond died on his lips when Izzy told him not to say whatever he wants. He will spoil him? That was a good promise. "Well, you are already spoiling me by being here, I couldn't ask for anything better. But if I'd have to choose, it would definitely be .. salad?" Okay, not such a grand choice, but at least it was something Izzy could work with.
I can, um, just slip on what I had, and change when I get back to my dorm.
"Oh.." He said softly, giving him a light nod. "Okay then," Kaoru didn't want today to end, he also didn't want his roommate to arrive. Does that make him a bad person? for wanting to spend some time with Izzy alone? It surely sounded selfish of him. "I wish we could stay together in here," his mouth betrayed him by letting out his thoughts form into proper words, he was too lost to actually notice what he said.
Are you sure you don't just want to wait for Mikky to get home to cook for you?
Kaoru started a new task of taking care of his hair before it would get complicated and take hours to comb through. "Mm, he's a terrible cook, though. No one's as good as you." Did he really not catch the true meaning behind Izzy's sharp words? Though he had bad chills about that comment. "And why would I do that?" Kaoru said, voice monotone for a brief moment. "C'mon Izzy, don't be like that. He's a nice guy and I don't like him in the way you think I do, so please, don't think I'll ever do something like that to you. If it is not a good thing, I'll stop bringing him up, promise." - - i think i love you better now
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